Subjective theory

It's not fun when everyone's happy and you're sitting there thinking you could've been too.

Back from the field

Work on ground looks great, saw a couple of people my Project is trying to spring out of poverty. HOPE is a keyword I will not be taking lightly for a while.

No regrets after

Today, I realized that the choices I've made in the past few weeks are not irrational, in fact, as it happens, they are quite possibly the wisest. Its times like these I say to myself 'you did good kid, the best you could and now move on'

Taking a day off

Must needed day off, lots of fun things to catch up on

Isloofornication

The only version of Islamabad I live in. To be less conceited, I acquainted myself once again with the people I've known since a child. Good food, cigarettes, and as usual the company. It was a good Saturday. Need more of these in February. A lot more..

Taking a break

All this while I thought I was the one who should be expected to initiate. Well, this can no longer be the case. To earn some form of space and harmony of my mind and soul, I will step away for a change and not pursue but be pursued.

The Dream Sequence

Let me work with this, wait. Yes, there has been a major time lapse between my last post and what you are about to read. They're right when they talk about passive obsession or in lay man's terms, the human dilema. You see, it always takes a while for a person to come back to normal, come to terms with things which are beyond his control, giving up is not necessarily a bad thing, in fact, sometimes giving up could lead to bigger and better possibilities, for example me giving up the life I wanted and knew for something completely unknown and cold. There is definitiely a trick to all this, I'm afraid its taken me years to find and understand. Well, its simple, perhaps we really are taking this life way too seriously, from the clothes we wear to the people we want in our lives but don't have, its going to be nothing short of a matrix gig. If you haven't chased people, money, possessions, a new phone and a big tv you're not normal, but the fact of it is, all those things chase you. We take people too seriously, want them too badly, especially the ones we love and those who don't love us back, its a harsh reality, and perhaps it isn't that important in the grand scheme of things, but we like to think it is. Stop dreaming, start living, accept things, accept who you are, accept what your life is, accept that there is a possibility you will not have what you desire so much, accept that there are things beyond your control and forever will remain so, accept that you have a very small time left on this planet, accept that hate will only kill you and no one else, accept that you are not as good as you think you are, accept that life goes on, accept that your life is yours and yours entirely and only you hold the clay to mould it, accept that you are no ones and no one is yours. Sleep well and stop dreaming.